I know I have said it here before, so I hope you don't mind if I repeat myself a little....... this year was a difficult one for me in many ways.
Never having been a person who really gets depressed and has a hard time even understanding how one can get lost in it, I think that I may have a small understanding of how people suffer with it now. Perhaps it has been menopause knocking on my door, or the seclusion of working at home alone under a heavy workload, but I let so many things go by the wayside in my struggle, most importantly my friendships.
As a young teen, I was skinny, freckled, bespeckled, wore braces and was teased at times. (If they could only see "Flatsy Patsy" now) As an older teen when the braces were gone, the curves filing in and going to a new school, I enjoyed a new found confidence, from the sheer determination of never wanting to be a wall flower again... and that confidence has carried me thru life. However, there is always that insecure part deep inside of me.......that child who remembers the loneliness of being the last one picked for the baseball team and watching the other kids being invited for sleep overs.
Thru a series of unfortunate events, I lost my room at the B&B that I had booked with my friends in my local Spinning community. Now many of you would not think of me as a shy person, but I get nervous when I go outside of my comfort zone and the idea of being in a hotel with a big group of people who know each other pretty well, really moved me outside that comfort zone. Knowing most of these people only thru blogs and not in person, I will admit I was a bit nervous. Those old feelings of inadequacies snuck up, and I almost gave into them and stayed home. However, with that old determination I found as a teen, I plopped myself in the car and got myself to the hotel (my eventful trip is a story for another day).
I can only say is I am so thankful I chose to go. Fiber people are the best sort of people! This was on one of the most enjoyable weekends I have had in a very, very long time. It was so fun to put faces on the friends I have met thru blogging and really getting to know them. And while I wish that I could have spent more time getting to know a few others better, I know that there will always be next year :-)!
So, while Rhinebeck is usually about the fiber, this year for me, it was about friendships, both old and new!
PS.........Don't you love the beautiful picture that came home with me? Such a beautiful, peaceful picture....