
When birds fly too high,
They sing out of tune.
There are times when we feel out of harmony with our surroundings, matters do not go our way, and we feel confused and disoriented. Sometimes these moments will last a day, and sometimes they may last for weeks.
Deng Ming~Dao
The other day this card arrived from a very caring friend who I love. She knows this winter has been a struggle for me and has sent me little beams of sun here and there that have always made me smile, and this one really made me smile because it arrived almost the very day that Spring decided to make it's appearance here in the mountains of New Hampshire.
The Tao quote above pretty much sums up my winter. I haven't posted much because it's been very hard for me not to be a Debbie Downer, which is so out of sync with my normal disposition. Many of you know I have struggled with chronic pain now for a few years and I think it just got to me this winter. I spent most of the winter feeling completely overwhelmed, over worked and sad....yep, pity party, which I hate being that person, because I don't care much for it in others. I now have a better understanding how a person can get into that place, and it's not a fun place to be. It has taught me to be more compassionate for those who struggle in darker places, which I never understood before.
I have been undergoing injection therapy to help rebuild the ligaments and tendons that support my hips and back and these injections have been quite painful, however I had a full week of feeling strong again, not having to take pain pills, which in themselves propel a soul towards saddness. It was a week that gave me hope that I might actually get my life back and had me sitting behind a spinning wheel which I have not been able to do since last summer...it was wonderful! I did have to have another round of injections last week, which set me back again, but knowing now after 3 weeks last time I felt much better it gives me hope if I can just ride this inflammation period out, I will get back there again. No more shots now for 4 months...w00t!

It felt like a button was pushed this week. We moved from winter to spring just like that, in the blink of an eye. The warm weather and sunshine has really helped me to pick myself up by the seat of my pants and climb back onto that proverbial horse...life. The robins have made their annual nest in the bushes next to my studio. The perennials are poking up and showing that they don't care that I didn't clean them up last fall. Life goes on and the gods smile on us in the Spring. It's very hard not to be more optimistic in the spring...thank goodness for that!
...and I actually feel like blogging again, so you will hear from me a little more often with happier things and a few nice surprises heading this way. :-)
Thank you for listening and thank you Margene for always being the supportive friend that you are and helping me to smile. <3 you!